Jaie Miller
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I'm 20 years old and I live in London. I feel like I'm slowly going insane. I cannot maintain rational thought. I am easily aggitated and my energy is becoming disruptive. I find it hard to be at peace for long periods of time. My thought flow is often interrupted. I find it difficult to differentiate between what is real and un-real. I am trying to remain calm and focused. I often get woken up at random times and feel an urge to be active. I find it difficult to exist in a space without being intruded upon. I am very dis tractable. I've been medicated for the past 2.5 years. I don't want to be locked away. I feel like I have to do things-like run or skip. I hear voices. I think I've been poisoned. I feel like people are coming after me. I like music. I feel lost. I feel ugly_my thoughts are ugly_ Words resonate with me_ I pick up on sounds and emotions_that are not mine. I feel like a caged monkey_ I feel possessed_ I feel abused. On the edge. I know I am a decent person. My personality has split. I need help. I do not feel safe. I am seeing strange things in people. I notice strange things in myself. I don't know who I am anymore. I am ready to give up. I don't trust anyone. I don't really want to speak to anyone. I don't want to do anything.