Results 1 to 9 of 9

Thread: Paranoia.

Hybrid View

Previous Post Previous Post   Next Post Next Post
  1. #1
    Join Date
    Oct 2004
    Posts
    22,953

    Default Paranoia.

    Obviously very fascinating.

  2. #2
    Join Date
    Oct 2004
    Posts
    22,953

    Default

    it can be a very useful corrective. These fears that emerge, details fit together to create a picture of the future very different to the one you had complacently anticipated.

    How your acts can be interpreted very differently as soon as your ID card and clearance is revoked. If you're not assumed from the offset to be innately decent, kind, honest, but instead as an enemy who hasn't revealed himself yet.

  3. #3
    Join Date
    Oct 2004
    Posts
    22,953

    Default

    I'm good at distinguishing what is paranoid thinking without dismissing the emotional truth at the heart of the paranoid vision, that is what I tell myself.

    Obviously it's weed that is the prime driver of severe paranoia for me but also sustained binge drinking tips you into this space, but more insidiously, gradually. The hangovers, the compounded guilt and shame. The repressed memories.

  4. #4
    Join Date
    Oct 2004
    Posts
    22,953

    Default

    How easily reality can be reconstituted using the very same elements, the exact same data points. A completely other universe emerges, ready made.

  5. #5
    Join Date
    Jul 2012
    Location
    On the bus
    Posts
    1,248

    Default

    Used to play a huge role in my life. All kinds of things can trigger it. Sleep depravation was a major one for me. But over time as I get older it's way easier to spot it for what it is as you say, while still utilizing the moment and realizing why it happened.

    Weed used to do it. These days I'm sensible with intake which makes a huge difference. Keep your tolerance low is my trick. Smoke small amounts. You won't look cool at all but you'll have your head way more together. And smoking it with tobacco changes what happens to your brain. Hits you harder and often darker.

    Laying awake for hours waiting for stims to wear off can also be an interesting ride. I try to have some kind of benzo around because no matter how many beers, fags n spliffs you smoke to fend off the demons. They comin. I also found out that eating, even if its the last thing you want to do can settle things down a bit.
    Took a rest stop that wasn't on the schedule

  6. #6
    Join Date
    Mar 2011
    Location
    Berlin
    Posts
    1,412

    Default

    for me substance abuse often leads to blackouts, where upon waking up my memories only go back upon a certain time from the previous night. what i noticed is that for me this creates a certain kind of paranoia where even an innocent smile from someone on the street leads me to think all sorts of fucked up scenario's. in berlin, people somehow have the tendency to stare you in the eyes for a longer time and it is freaking me out very often. maybe they met me in a different state? maybe i've said things to them, maybe they know things about me?

Posting Permissions

  • You may not post new threads
  • You may not post replies
  • You may not post attachments
  • You may not edit your posts
  •