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    this is why creative practise of some kind is important. It focuses the mind, opens new channels, offers rewards for effort, discipline and thought and a pathway to different modes of thinking.
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    Yeah well luckily that is the one thing I've managed to keep up. Not as assiduously or as piously as I would like but it's there. And there's no doubt in my mind that it has helped me immeasurably.

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    But it's like, war on dust,

    You've run out of toilet paper you have to go shop now
    You have to cut your toenails
    You haven't done last nights dishes
    There's fucking books and papers everywhere and you need to tidy up
    Everything's covered in dust
    The windows are so dirty you can't see out of them
    There's no food in the house
    You haven't called this person you are obligated to call
    You mum hasn't seen you in a while
    You're ru Ning low on medication
    You haven't posted that letter yet


    It never fucking ends and YOU KNOW in those rare moments when you are MORE OR LESS on top of this stuff, it's amazing, like you've just had a piss or shit you was busting for... That exhilarating sense of rebirth and total freedom
    But it just starts racking up again. Avalanche. Social obligations. Self-care whatever. Do this do that.

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    That post

    I can't concentrate on it too much because it makes me feel queasy and weary
    Αι ψυχαί οσμώνται καθ΄ Άιδην.

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    That's what's nice about a good holiday. I've had a few. I would say at least 5 or 6. In a place you Want to be, doing nice things. With no sense of obligation. Wake up, go coffee shop, sit there half an hour, wander off, get a croissant, go to an art gallery. Wander about. Have dinner. Get a bit pissed. Wake up, no hangover, start again.

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    You're absolutely right

    I've been on holiday for basically a month - it's the only thing that's made this year worth living

    Didn't read a book the whole time, either - only bits and pieces
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    You like to tell yourself

    'Oh if it wasn't for the work the holidays wouldn't mean anything'

    You don't want to think about how great a full time holiday would be

    Don't dare think of how good life could be
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    That gestalt concept of 'unfinished business' is very real and applies at all scales but equally we all resent having to turn our lives into a to-do list. We resent having to do anything. This is the problem. Happiness or wellness or spiritual beatitude, is essentially a set of obligations, just as physical fitness is. It ties you to a treadmill.

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    Like, we pretty much all know what is good for us, what we should be doing, what we must on all accounts avoid, but because it's felt as a fait accompli, we want to push back. No, assert our independence, be wilful. Notes from underground. No palace of crystal.

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    Saved & lost a thousand times
    in swift succession/rising and sinking
    beneath the grey wave
    always wanting whatever
    we currently lack.
    For good or ill
    mere greed
    for change
    and shifting circumstance. The price-
    obedience/dearest of all sacrifices


    To adhere to the circle of that spotlight
    moving as it moves/dancing within that white disc
    disavowing all the growling, fierce pleasures
    of the dark.

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    I almost never read on holiday. I had a beach holiday once and that was good for reading otherwise no. I always pack about 15 kilos of paperbacks and ignore all of them.

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    Somebody say something. Keep talking. Otherwise I'll have to do a Jordan Peterson and tidy my room.

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    Quote Originally Posted by luka View Post
    That gestalt concept of 'unfinished business' is very real and applies at all scales but equally we all resent having to turn our lives into a to-do list.
    I've ended up having to make lists because I often get bogged down trying to remember what I need to do, but the lists are becoming increasingly elaborate and starting to include the other lists.

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    The most neurotic person I've ever met spent all night every night drawing up incredibly detailed timetables for the day ahead. No hour not accounted for. I've always said I'll never write a to do list but last year I did start writing things on the calendar. 7th of July- job in woolwich. That sort of thing. I've fallen out of the habit this year and it's really fucking me up.

    I've just done the dishes btw. Other big tasks are filing away the papers that are strewn all over the floor and all available surfaces and taking some bedding to the laundrette.nif I can complete these tasks I will be in a better position than I've been in for several months. Things have really got ahead of me recently and I've suffered for it.

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    I've been keeping lists since I was a kid

    I think even then I knew my mind was a cluttered mess

    As version says, it becomes a list of other lists

    And certain to dos hang over me for years on end, becoming like a stamp of weakness
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