luka
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Like any other self respecting adolescent I loved nothing more than wallowing in voluptuous melancholy. Nothing feels better. But at some point in my early 20s I decided that it was Unmanly and unbecoming, tawdry and self indulgent, and that I had to put a stop to it and ever since that door has been bolted. I can't find my way back to that emotion.
I think that melancholy is bound up with the feeling of impotence. Of feeling that you are unable to act, to affect things, to alter reality. And I think that ever since I made myself real to myself and to the external world, I lost that delicious bittersweet sanctuary. Which I regret to some extent. So I wonder if it is possible to get back by immersing myself in melancholy music?
What suggestions have you got for a training regime?
I think that melancholy is bound up with the feeling of impotence. Of feeling that you are unable to act, to affect things, to alter reality. And I think that ever since I made myself real to myself and to the external world, I lost that delicious bittersweet sanctuary. Which I regret to some extent. So I wonder if it is possible to get back by immersing myself in melancholy music?
What suggestions have you got for a training regime?