What do you wish you'd done differently in life? What are you glad to have done?

sus

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A big prompt, but I'm still trying to figure out what things matter and what things don't. Half my friends have gone hard-trad: agrarian wet dreams, small towns, triplets at twenty-seven. They post memes on social media of cities burning, "muh culture in the time of riot." The rest seem destined to stick it out in metro: either climbing the ranks of downtown skyscrapers toward the penthouse, to burn out at 50 on a bottle of benzos and white wine — "where did it all go?" — or else as artworld freak-urchins, leaching around subway stations until they bum out at middle age to cheaper real estate in the north country, making bitter comments about health insurance to anyone who'll listen.
 
luka

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for me the really big questions are imponderables. eg, what if I never done a load of drugs and instead directed my energies into the socially approved channels ie education then work.
 
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luka said:
for me the really big questions are imponderables. eg, what if I never done a load of drugs and instead directed my energies into the socially approved channels ie education then work.
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What are you glad to have in your life?
 
luka

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Life is a game of choice and consequence as my dad used to say. with every choice you make you lose whole lives, possible selves die without being born etc. You can never go back. All decisions are final.
 
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suspendedreason said:
What are you glad to have in your life?
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For me I decided once and for all to pursue my own perverse path come what may, grit my teeth and take whatever comes so long as I can preserve my own funny ideas about what matters. So I am glad I haven't sold out and compromised etc. I've kept my integrity, as I understand it and conceive it. That's the only thing I'm glad about. Being bloody minded to the point of wilful self sabotage,
 
luka

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Exactly. Whatever you choose, you've not chosen a whole load of other things. all those things are gone forever. You can't keep your options open. Don't try to. Just commit.
 
luka

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Barty keeps telling me how my saying you have to work out exactly how weird you are has been important for him. Don't kid yourself. If you're not a bohemian, don't force it. Make some money and buy a wine rack and don't feel guilty about it.
 
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Equally if you are a freak, through no fault of your own, don't try and be normal. It would be t work. You'll go fucked in the head and stab your girlfriend or something, definitely you'll end up naked getting sectioned
 
shiels

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Our generation are haunted by these questions. Lockdown has forced us all to stew on it further @Corpsey had a thread on this a couple of months back where we all ended up talking about the meaning of the word melancholy

I don’t want to talk about all the things because i’m still gonna do them... and don’t want to scud it
 
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who's them? Nobody on here is 19

If you could do it all again

What would you do differently? Lately I've been thinking that I've essentially been making huge mistakes both personally and professionally since circa 2003. (Often the mistake has been not to make a mistake by actually doing something. I've sat on the pot, not shitting.)
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