Was walking around Honolulu airport really late at night. I walked really far from the main area, and eventually I reached a huge part of the airport where there was like nobody there. Like, it was kinda post apocalyptic. Literally nobody was in this part of the airport. I found it surreal with all the empty seats, the unused payphones, the clear hallways. I took a moment to stop, and just look around me and imagine what this area could have been with people here, the business, the announcements.
Then I kept walking down the hallway, and discovered an even creepier area that was somehow more surreal. If you have ever been to Honolulu airport, you know that the airport partly is outside, and this is even after security. I found a door going outside to the shuttle buses, so I walked out. It was right there I truly felt alone in the universe. Not a single person around, or even airplanes at the gate. I looked in the distance and saw an airplane hanger, all lit up in the dark of night. Something about that just made me want to start crying, so I started crying in a deserted, outside part of the airport at night. I then walked outside some more, and discovered a waiting room that was completely isolated from the rest of the airport. I went in, and I just started bawling, as if there was supposed to be people here, but all of humanity was exterminated, and was replaced with aliens. I can’t really explain why I was crying there, it was like the feeling of complete isolation, kinda like a metaphor for myself. Isolated; you want people there, but nobody is there, hence all the empty seats waiting for people to come. It was also kinda like the earth before humans, all pure and clean, just waiting for someone or something to appear.
I then started to wonder how far humans have come. We have been able to create a machine capable of flying in the sky, like a bird at hundreds of km an hour, which was a dream 100 years ago or so. Yet, we are not able to reach even outside our own solar system and explore what is truly out there in space. We have big dreams, and sometimes we dream too much.
Did I also mention that when I had that little existential crisis in the airport I had this song playing quietly, and was really tired, so I was tripping out. I just really love this song.