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Version are you gonna reach out to her or what?
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dilbert1

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She gets an incredible amount of hate for having briefly done porn, too. Barring the fake tits and repulsive materialistic influencer (non)personality, she’s 100% my type. I mistook this thread for being primarily about looks. Probably says something about me
 

dilbert1

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I used to only go for like-minded types, some kind of similar Left or punk/alt adjacent subculture affinities. I maxed that out dating a slightly older anarchist conceptual artist and academic virtuoso for a year (long distance). After that ended painfully, I eventually arrived at the idea I’d have to abandon that rubric altogether. For example, some time later (years, if I’m being honest) I was approached by an English girl living in America temporarily, getting her PhD in sound art and experimental music. Her whole family were card-carrying socialists and she was the insurrectionary black sheep. Her bookshelf had all the ‘correct’ radical names and titles. She was sweet and ticked all those boxes, but more important things were clearly missing from the equation for me (and not just physical attraction), which made those signifiers seem so incredibly hollow. So I had to issue an uncomfortable rejection which I felt guilty for. Here’s this nice girl with similar interests, and I’d prefer to remain lonely?

So I meet another girl soon after. She reads some, loves art and film, but doesn’t give one fuck about politics or philosophy. Quite anti-intellectual really, near f-scale levels of intolerance for ambiguity. She’s loud, brash, irreverent, brutally honest, mischievous, hilarious, stylish, and incredibly beautiful and wealthy. And I loved it. But unfortunately in the end that turned out to be a massive over-correction on my part. What I had previously come to dismiss as inconsequential and merely aesthetic points of contact, reappeared in the form of fundamental values and my sense of self. Quite the shit-show. I ended up with intense anxiety and a near-identity crisis, terrible break up.
 
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