in je ogen waait de wind
i had the worst night of sleep since a long time last night. too much things going on.
For about 12 weeks I had obligations to get up at 6AM every day. My sleep schedule never adjusted, could not for the life of me fall asleep before midnight. And I had a nasty habit of waking up at 3 or 4 in the morning absolutely wired with no hope of falling back asleep. Took a regimen of two Dramamine at night and two 5 hour energies in the morning that I was completely dependent on. The constancy and necessity of chemical loop felt like an IV.Well yeah... really struggle to get up in the morning. If I suddenly have a commitment at nine am it's like a massive ask for me... like when I had to get the car fixed and that was the only slot available. Even yesterday our friends wanted to meet for lunch, suggested one, I said can we do two... we made it but only just.