You sound a lot like me, Version. Are you a middle child?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_PanQ3g7j5E&I'd imagine we all have a facade, to varying degrees. seems to diminish as you get older, you either settle in with like types (and thus don't need to project) or just no longer give a shit how you're perceived. we all care how we come off, but it's possible to care very little.
you need to be rich though or have a unique talent that you can live off while staying independent.That patty cakes quote is it really. It’s always a game for me. I don’t have real friendships. I’m incredibly condescending to everyone else and this feel I’m too smart to engage with them honestly.
I've got maybe two mates I can do this with and I rarely see them, plus one of them's the worst drunk ever. Always blacks out and ends up ripping his shirt off or cutting himself or pouring a drink over his own head or something. An Oliver Reed-type.Two people or maybe more but usually two just trying very hard to entertain each other in the pub. Where you're both really Impressed with how clever and funny the other person is. That's quite lovely.