entertainment
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I found some of the music on an old external hard disk the other week and it gave me a nice stroll down memory lane. I thought I had deleted every trace of it.
I felt like I only really started to be myself, or be comfortable being myself, in my early twenties when I left high school. I still get kind of shy in some situations, but it's rare.
I was quite awkward around girls through high school. In the three years leading up to it, when you're supposed to start learning the teenage behavior codes, I was hanging out with two other friends, getting high and making hip hop beats in my parents basement, doing a lot of shit that, for me, purposefully did not involve socializing with people of the opposite sex. As the people from my class got further into parties and started having sex, I gravitated further from them, now having missed that train completely.
Being nervous and shy can make you narcissistic, I think.
But obviously the opportunities for conversation are very limited. Also banter can be good if you're in the mood. I did enjoy the pub for a couple of years. The theatre of it.
Yeah it's great. Unfortunately with most people and groups I know it all turned dark and people turned into alcoholics and addicts and mental cases and that kind of wholesome good natured fun became impossible.
Yeah it's great. Unfortunately with most people and groups I know it all turned dark and people turned into alcoholics and addicts and mental cases and that kind of wholesome good natured fun became impossible.
Tends to go that way when you're on the stronger stuff as well. I think groups of "party mates" only last a few years or so. And you graduate to more normal less intense friendships in some cases.