could well beSufi, not saying this is you btw. Luka’s comment sent me off on a tangent
this is surely a deliberate process sometimes, i have good memories of loitering on the sidelines at a club night until a tune came on that i liked, after which i would do w/ever all night, very liberatingThe crossing of the threshold of self guarding, self consciousness is fascinating. Teetering on the edge of a wedding dance floor, cool, cynical but also a bit jealous. All these mixed feelings. Then when you abandon and get sucked in, free... and all that doubt feels silly, something has been temporarily shed but you have to stay in the flow or it’ll grow back around you
Luka I thought your how to write thing was fucking brilliant and funny on this. The “social self scanning the room for cues” etc. Would love to read more on that
this is surely a deliberate process sometimes, i have good memories of loitering on the sidelines at a club night until a tune came on that i liked, after which i would do w/ever all night, very liberating
you can cry if you need to, no one here will judge you.we all just listen to the same song at the same time? cry?