Murphy
cat malogen
.. she liking all my messages and sending interesting kiss emojis....
brave new world
.. she liking all my messages and sending interesting kiss emojis....
getting quite into this writing style. it's a good lesson to learn kc, that you should only have sex with people that you actually likethis girl on an app.... idk what to say she says something about ordering cards for a table... i say what games were going to play.... so fast shes like when are we playing.... we going to go to a bar to "play cards" wed night.... she liking all my messages and sending interesting kiss emojis.... i thought she was beaufiful in the pictures..... im on the train to where i told her to meet me.... the bar.... i get a message from her saying that she doesnt have money to make the commute and asks if i can go to a bar near her place.... ok i never hear that one before.... i get to that spot and meet her.... she looked better in the pictures.... i get a beer and a shot and tell her i dont drink.... we dont play cards.... we talk and almost immediately she asks if its ok if she touches me.... i tell her i do poetry open mics and she lights up (yes wise luka and mr suspended i know its june and i havent posted about it in a while but i did write a new one recenetly and have one or two open mics on the calendar in june and one in july that i will be going to and posting about dont worry).... then shes like can we go to the back patio of this bar so i can vape.... theres nowhere to sit and we stand back to this somewhat secluded area and she goes "im going to be completely transperant but ur really hot and attracitve and cute" i say thank you and dont relay the compliment back to her....she already making out with me.... then asks if i want to come over..... she has a bigger apartment than mine.... not like that big but idk..... its funny..... she asks me what i want to do i say fuck she says idk about tonight.... then were in bed messing around and i ask if shes ok to fuck and she says "ok yes but i want to see you again", i say yea but in my head im like idk maybe no.... i get bored fast then make her listen to me talk instead of fooling around or going another round and tell her we'll go to the movies this weekend then i go home......
shes from midwest... is irish/scottish i thought she was like asian...... but has weird midwest irish scottish accent.... im not in love..... you know how girls always say "yea guys just want to fuck..... yea i could tell he just wants to fuck"..... well now i know how they feel.... this girl just wanted to fuck i felt like but it also seems like she actually liked me which not a good thing..... like we were only at that bar for like 30-45 min then shes like come over.....im not trying to be bragadocious or go on about how "easy" it came tonight because i instantly regretted hooking up after it happened.... i wasnt that attracted to her and hadnt gotten laid in a few months and then saw my chance and took it.... now i feel bad.... i aint have to work for shit.....and now i gotta take her out again i guess because she said "yes but i want to see you again'.... i feel so bad i dont want to see her again.... godfather 2 is playing at film forum sunday im legit thinking of making her sit through that like maybe she'll not want to go out with me after that idk.... i just think back to other girls and damn i was really into them and likely more into them than they were into me.... this is flipside and its not exciting just scary and boring..... idk man..... i feel bad i shouldve not gone out with her.... idk maybe i go out with her again and will be more into her.... it is also becoming increasingly likely that i will be moving out of nyc soon and i didnt say anything about that
I’m a slow learner I guessgetting quite into this writing style. it's a good lesson to learn kc, that you should only have sex with people that you actually like
@ o bleakI’m a slow learner I guess
how does class come into play in kid's recent story?could be class dynamics at play. Had a similar experience once.
Kid, why leaving New York soon?
Kid is high class and she claimed she couldn't afford a train tichow does class come into play in kid's recent story?
Basicallyis charlemagne an aristocrat?
no i was never a big drinker ever really, had gotten drunk before, but it wouldnt be often.... then in mid 2023 i got bad stomach problems.... ive since 95 percent gotten over all that thankfully and am ok having at least 1 drink on a night out..... i havent been seeking out alcohol, but am not "allergic" to ithave you always been sober kid?
because mother.... will attempt to convince otherwise but im bad at conversations with hercould be class dynamics at play. Had a similar experience once.
Kid, why leaving New York soon?