i agree, i can't make up my mind on anything. also, i've seen more films these last three years than during my entire life, more films than actual real life, sadly. a lot of what i have seen has either reflected my past in some uncanny way or started to permeate the world around me, the most jarring example being few days ago when my co-flatmate was kidnapped outside an atm. she was shuttled back and forth through the city at knifepoint, doused with water, threatened+. that very day, unaware of her ordeal, i had watched i ragazzi della roma violenta, which deals with bands of disaffected youth that do bad things to girls. there were also flashbacks to the plight of rena niehaus in la orca, needless to say i won't be lending her these films anytime soon. she is thankfully safe at our flat now, eating onion soup made by yours truly. so, in retrospect i regret leaving out la orca, l'immoralità, bestialità, burning lips, anything with leonora fani, ms niehaus, some david hamilton film for pleasure, the emmanuelle films, naked gun, blade runner (how could i forget), ondata di piacere, like idlerich la bête, even the shit borowczyk films are worth watching. the list will change constantly, it's impossible to see and appreciate all there is in such a short time. and oliver, i had forgotten about ghostbusters! my first soundtrack ever, sniff.
+ a little context, this fast kidnapping with the intention of emptying out a person's bank account was pioneered in argentina during the time of the economic crisis i think, occasionally (sadly more frequently than i thought) the style is copied this side of the mountain, this is what she got herself into
