Maybe he met a lot of vampiric women. woops has met a lot like that. One of them gives all her boyfriends cancer. (Woops escaped somehow)
One thing that really struck me back when I went on a big PKD reading binge in my teens was how vitriolic his dislike of (some) women was. He's a bit like D. H. Lawrence in that: some of his most psychically villainous characters are women who are portrayed as total energy vampires, poisonous neurotics, a menace to the well-being of all around them. It's something other than standard or straightforward misogyny (although I think it is misogynistic), because it meshes in a particular way with the paranoiac worldview. That which was supposed to be a source of comfort and nurture in the world has become its opposite, an intensely localised symptom of the wrongness of reality in general.
A self crystallises around
A self is a discipline
Yeah, @droid posted a link about that in one of the older threads. He thought Lem was a collective of agents or something and reported him to the FBI.I read some interesting stuff about him trying to link up with Lem but his paranoia and grasping for money ruined that one.
There's also a section about these things called 'zomes' in the desert which people enter and never return from, supposedly falling through time, space, other dimensions, who knows.I have read it but you're right I don't remember the thing about being an alien, do remember the Lemuria stuff though. Vaguely.