A D H D

[sus]

deceased tumblr icon Kontextmaschine after using lexapro

I’ve become so much more confident. I work a room like wham. I flirt like Captain Kirk. I talk dirty like holy shit, like R. Lee Ermey’s audition tape, minutes solid without repeating myself. Which is great, because that’s practically the only way I can orgasm anymore. Even my reliable fetishes (girls wetting themselves or pissing outside, I think it’s the old flesh/spirit thing) don’t work anymore.

I drink straight liquor, which I never did before, like a lot of it, but I carry it well.

I black out sometimes or grey out and run on pure id and I’m quite charming to myself and others.

I fall asleep easily, have pettily realistic shallow dreams. Worthless sub sub sub us stuff and then I wake up and between the drunk and that it’s not clear what really went down.

My farts smell like pure evil, oh god.

I don’t have a cutoff level for sleep anymore. I’ll sleep 5 hours and pee, 8 hours and get a drink and slump back down, 10 hours and it’s a comfy bed, 12 hours and pee and holy shit I just slept 14 hours. I got into this for a long insomnia thing so maybe it’s just a large but finite deficit but let’s see.

 

[luka]

ADHD people need a high level of stimulation and they misbehave in order to create action around them. Just look at the ADHD behaviour of one person on here, enough to make the whole forum feel overwhelmed because there's too much stimulation for them.

Is that a self diagnosis?

 

[Benny Bunter]

Adults diagnosing children with so called ADHD on such a flimsy, vague and subjective set of supposed symptoms, and prescribing them powerful drugs, is horrific and disturbing to me. What the fuck are we doing?

 

[Benny Bunter]

@sus is completely right on this issue

 

[shakahislop]

Is there anything less cool than wearing a U2 tour t-shirt

 

[Benny Bunter]

As for adults, how many supposed ADHD sufferers have honestly fully explored alternatives to drugs in order to combat that list of symptoms posted upthread? Exercise, a good diet, good sleep habits, a healthy social and family life, pursuing creative outputs etc etc. It's not exactly rocket science. Everyone's desperate for a quick fix, but there isn't one.

 

[Benny Bunter]

• carelessness and lack of attention to detail
• continually starting new tasks before finishing old ones
• poor organisational skills
• inability to focus or prioritise
• continually losing or misplacing things
• forgetfulness
• restlessness and edginess
• difficulty keeping quiet, and speaking out of turn
• blurting out responses and often interrupting others
• mood swings, irritability and a quick temper
• inability to deal with stress
• extreme impatience
• taking risks in activities, often with little or no regard for personal safety or the safety of others – for example, driving dangerously

My 10 year old son often displays many of these 'symptoms', but he's just a bright, lively and energetic kid and school genuinely is fucking boring most of the time, has he fuck got ADHD!

 

[Benny Bunter]

The real problem is schools can't cope and parents can't cope, so they look for a quick fix, or have one pushed on them, that's all it is, nothing to do with some made up condition.

 

[Benny Bunter]

• carelessness and lack of attention to detail

Because whatever you are doing is probably BORING

• continually starting new tasks before finishing old ones

BORING tasks you can't be arsed to finish, and probably someone is telling you to do them

• poor organisational skills

Can't muster up the interest to care about the BORING things you have to organise

• inability to focus or prioritise

On BORING tasks

• continually losing or misplacing things

Too distracted by the BORING tasks to sort yourself out

• forgetfulness

Mind has been gradually numbed so you daydream to get away from BORING reality

• restlessness and edginess

You feel like you should be somewhere else, doing something less BORING

• difficulty keeping quiet, and speaking out of turn

when listening to some BORING fucker droning on

• blurting out responses and often interrupting others

See above

• mood swings, irritability and a quick temper
• inability to deal with stress
• extreme impatience
• taking risks in activities, often with little or no regard for personal safety or the safety of others – for example, driving dangerously

All to do with how understandably BORED you are

 

[Benny Bunter]

Channeling your boredom into music is good, a lot of good has come out of that, but in the past it would have been in a band or something with your equally bored mates, a chance to be sociable and have a laugh even if what you were doing was fairly shite really. Not sat alone in front of a computer like most artistically inclined bored people nowadays.

 

[kumar]

shiels is talking sense here id like to hear more

 

[kumar]

a couple of friends have been diagnosed in their fifties. Having spent their lives getting belittled by teachers, peers, made to stand in the hall basically every day at school, leaving with no exams , running to the city with no belongings, losing their wallet all the time, becoming hardcore alcoholics, going through twelve steps repeatedly, NA, becoming alcoholic again, fucking up every single meaningful relationship for decades, and then having to explain to their work coach why they’ve been unemployed this whole time, it’s been revelatory.

They haven’t got evangelical about it at all or got on meds and mostly it seems like adhd is talked about by their specialists as a socially contingent way of evading self hatred.

 

[kumar]

The older I get the more I think a lot of diagnosis is a large scam akin to the opiate painkiller mess in the states.

basicaly agree with this, but if you’ve got a kid who needs extra support in school at least in the UK, the only way it will get funded is to get a diagnosis, often at an earlier age than clinically recommended.

And you end up with the most dastardly acronyms that sound like some allo allo gestapo general conjured up eg PDA , “pathological demand avoidance” . But again, rather than a lifetime of medication what it basically suggests is to be very attentive to how you talk to this child and avoid careless turns of phrase that will make them chuck chairs through the window

 

[catalog]

Kumar back inside the ride yes

 

[kumar]

As it happens I’ve been particualary inattentive and lacking focus recently so i thought I’d do some dissensus posts and observe the effects

 

[kumar]

I’ve actually had that impulse on occasion over the last year but every time I’ve come back on I’ve ended up on one of the toxic toilet threads and decided to have a nice lie down in the rain instead

 

[catalog]

Let's pull it back for jesus and kumar lads

 

[Mr. Tea]

"Toxic toilet threads" is a great phrase. Very apt.

 

[shiels]

shiels is talking sense here id like to hear more

He’s back!!!!

 

[mixed_biscuits]

something ironic about all of the information out there about autism is that is actually held me back from getting a diagnosis - particularly when I would read about people that would process information visually like Temple Grandin, and also because there was next-to-nothing about nvld out there especially 25-30 years ago.

I would be reading about autism, or something like Temple Grandin's biography, and I would be like "that's so me!" and then come to a part where she's visually processing or visually imagining a solution, and then I would get really frustrated because that was a _major_ thing that didn't line up.*

finally, one day, when a lot of stuff was crashing down around me, I decided that, well, I don't have anything to lose, right?

*I'm not saying that I don't have a mind's eye - but it's of limited use.
If you give me the choice between a map and verbal/written directions, I'll take the latter every time.
Granted, that will be my one and only route from those A to B points until the end of time.
Construction ahead? Road closed - take alternate route? er, well I have no idea what to do now (obviously this would be less of a problem now with all of phone apps)

Some people can't visualise at all.