Why Conspiracy Theories?

[luka]

felt more true to life. the black lodge is just a bit of silliness. comedy dwarf cavorting about speaking in a funny voice.

 

[Mr. Tea]

felt more true to life. the black lodge is just a bit of silliness. comedy dwarf cavorting about speaking in a funny voice.

I think the campiness is part of why it works so well as horror. The Upside-Down is "nightmarish" in the conventional sense of "really horrible", but it's not actually like something you'd see in a real nightmare. Not any I can remember, anyway. Whereas the Black Lodge, in fact all the more horrible scenes in Lynch, has a true hint of nightmare or hallucination about it.

 

[luka]

well i like em both im just being contrary

 

[Mr. Tea]

well i like em both im just being contrary

That's not like you at all!

 

[luka]

you really rolled a bad number. i dont know why you should have got such bad luck version. its not fair.

 

[luka]

i hope it goes away soon.

 

[luka]

feeling normal let alone feeling good is such a tenuous goldilocks state. its so fragile. having a horror trip a year ago really reminded me of that. you can get knocked off your perch at any time

 

[luka]

ive talked about it plenty before when your calibration gets knocked off and sounds are too loud and too grating. too 'internal' too close. things like that.

 

[luka]

how you feel about yourself, how you feel about other people, how threatening the outside world seems and etc etc

 

[luka]

i havent. but ive been in all sort of unpleasant relationships to myself

 

[Mr. Tea]

If you've ever seen Being John Malkovich, it can feel a bit like that.... like I'm a passenger in a body and sort of watching what it's doing from inside.

Eeech. I know this feeling - happened the first time I did mushrooms. I assume what you've got is a far milder version of that, or you'd be totally non-functional. Sounds shitty all the same and I hope you can eventually get past it.

 

[luka]

anxiety doesnt seem an accurate enough definition for me. im not happy with it. its more profound than that. im pretty sure ive have analagous things and have had something not totally disimilar for the last year and anxiety is too fuzzy and general. we will invent a new category

 

[pattycakes_]

@Mr. Tea @version looks like we 3 went through the same thing. I described it as an inner body experience. Some psych pros I've spoken to told me it was ego death

 

[pattycakes_]

Make that 4. Was like being a being within my own body. Looking from the perspective of someone or thing inside my own skull, the eye holes were like 2 holes cut out of a big box like when you were a kid.

 

[luka]

i think of it like a graphic equaliser and if some levels get turned up too much it becomes intolerably uncomfortable

 

[luka]

equally if some are too low it can feel too disassociated

 

[luka]

when i had my bad one i dont think there was any way to escape it. i dont think there was any way to think my way out or take some particular position in relation to the experience which would have mitigated it

 

[pattycakes_]

Thing is, boys, I think we went through what our ancestors would call an initiation. A rite of passage. We faced it, had no choice. And it passed, and we're still here. Now we just have to put the pieces back together. It can be done, I'm sure of it

 

[luka]

The other thing I had was looking at my hands and they looked like the hands of an old man.

ive had that with my face looking in the mirror. on weed. not acids. its quite intersting.

 

[luka]

Thing is, boys, I think we went through what our ancestors would call an initiation. A rite of passage. We faced it, had no choice. And it passed, and we're still here. Now we just have to put the pieces back together. It can be done, I'm sure of it

yeah but we're fucked! Jigsaw pieces everywhere!