tonight sat night i went to read a variation of this.... i got an ad on instagram about a "slut night" at this coffee shop for a sexy slutty open mic and this above came into my mind.... i was of course not planning on things ronight besides watching basketball so i had to force myself to go here.... i walkedup the subway and it was pouring now so i had to go.... i walked by the place twice then went it on the third walk by.... it was a small place i go to the bar and ask to sign up and sit down.... this gay guy starts talking to me i get a "sparkling lemonade".... he seems quite bored keeps asking me questions while i give him short answers.... then this girl walks in... i am right at the bar next to where people pay so she is close to me looking at the menu and starts talking to me about what to get.... i am so amazed a woman talking to me, i have aura like my favorite basketball players.... i continue talking to her and few others and she keeps talking to me..... the open mic starts..... these stories it was almost too much for my god fearing mind.... too much vulnerability people yelling cheering on "sluts" and "whores".... i read what i had and got applause..... basically one goal, not the main goal, out of goin to these open mics is to meet people, but thru 4 of them all of these open mics are like older people in their 30s and 40s, which is fine, but i so often feel like i child and it weirds me out but i think i just need to get used to being around older people, i guess theyre not that much older, but they older enough for me to feel out of place.... 9/11 came up and i was asked how old i was and i said my answer and these two girls went "omg".... whatever..... im mad at myself for not getting that one girls ig or number but i will keep going to these regardless of there never people being there who are around my age..... also it is always funny when i tell people my living situationa nd theyre like omg thats amazing.... i am excited to start going to more nyc poetry events now that im fully in the cityThis dream of you
Open and closed,
Those beautifully dark, dead pupils chokehold me alive.
Every night hit I relive you,
Inhaling the burnt sage, I forgive you.
Reaching out to those scrunchy cheeks I grasp nothing, but feel everything.
Coffee scented kisses,
Tangled up skin,
Interlocked branches of bones,
It’s all so clear to me.
But what is most clear to you?
My lust, or your golden fanged mistrust.