sufi
lala
Hmmm not sure this is entirely healthy, but i also get these echoes of earlier (pre-pandemic) thoughts about self sufficiency, survivalism, alot of which are connected to the alotment :crylarf: but i think there's something deeper too, i remember as a young child having fantasies about hiding out from invasions, feels quite instinctual to meWhen you think about this kind of thing a lot you get some inoculation. Years of low level anxiety act as psychological deposits in the bank. Personal circumstances ar a factor too, but Ive been eerily calm through this. Its like anticipating something awful happening for a long time leaving you more capable of dealing with it when it arrives - the death of a loved one after a long illness. The only time I felt anything close to panic was when it seemed imperial college were estimating much higher deaths than they were. Never so happy to be wrong about something.
That said, unfortunately, what you call ghoulishness has turned out to be realism. Perhaps not even realistic enough. The next couple of weeks are gonna be tough everywhere. I already know a few people whove lost loved ones.
I'm also surprised how easy it is to click into the hygiene thing, never having been a big handwasher, the circuits to change behaviour to avoid contagion are there even if you never used them before