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So beautiful
Last night I took a lot of MDMA and drank a lot and slept for three hours.

I've felt relatively okay today, considering, but this evening I started listening to some of my favourite choons on Spotify and have actually started sobbing on several occasions.

There's a lot of sad songs on my playlists (and sad songs masquerading as happy songs – see: disco) but I'm also crying at stuff that I just consider so good that it makes me weep with admiration for people and gratitude for music.

I feel that a comedown can sometimes be a sort of negative intoxication – except that I actually enjoy how emotionally vulnerable it makes me.

It's no secret that I'm a sadboy. I think these tears are always lurking beneath the surface but it takes a huge chemical blow to bring them gushing down my cheeks.

This has happened to me on a number of occasions. I think I shared the hilarious anecdote in here of when I was sat in my tent alone at Bestival, on a big comedown, literally weeping at the beauty of "U Don't Have To Call" by Usher.
When everything drops out and that bassline comes in I burst out laughing at how good it is. I imagine me and third and luke arms around each other spinning around kicking legs in a ceili yaaaaaa
What does that mean? I’ve had a fairly quiet weekend and I’m enjoying some music on a Sunday night and sharing with my friends on the internet


in je ogen waait de wind

i love the instrumental of this song, it reminds me so much of a drexciya track but i can't figure out which one.