Clinamenic
Binary & Tweed
I suspect it may be adored as an object but feared, yes, despised as a subject.
Also our social plans didn't leave much alone time, anyway. We sat in washington square park and talked about abortion and some other things, I mentioned Citizen's United v FEC as I have maybe four times in the last three days, and we then met up with another friend and his friends. Plus she was staying with her sister.What happened when you saw this girl? You weren't feeling it? But you had it in mind beforehand?
Maybe four years ago, before I had any sexual encounter to speak of, I made a desperate and somewhat bullheaded pass at her, albeit respectfully. My suggestion, during my visit to the college she had just transferred to, was that we enter a long-distance open relationship, which in hindsight was simply neither pragmatic nor erotic, but I suspect it set a certain tone.Did you tell her what you were feeling?
Might be worth trying to organise a proper date where you got time.
But I guess if you weren't feeling it, you weren't feeling it. At least in the beginning, it's important that you both wanna see one another, spend time with one another.
I wouldn't worry so much about the larger future, people can surprise you. But of course if you get a bad vibe a few times in a row...
So you doubt your own authenticity? Everybody does that all the time. I wouldnt worry about it.Actually I've bypassed my share of suitors, largely on the basis of intellectual discrepancy, which I have since come to reconsider the importance of, and largely on the basis of not even feeling like sexual engagement is even an authentic interest.
up the junctionMy only sexual engagement was with my boss, and she was 32 when I was 19, and in hindsight I was much more attracted to her personality than her body.