What led you to this change in attitude / you don't think you have a social front still ? That there is no performance no gap between front and backstage?what do you mean? i thought was quite straight. ask a question and i will answer it.
what led to the change in attitude was a lot of things led up to it, as always when you have a big change, but basically some mushrooms with two other lads and at some point i just decided, delusional probably but never mind, that they liked me, that people generally liked me, that i was likeable and didn't have to worry about the impression i made or conceal anything about my nature. and that stuck with me by and large, for better or for worseWhat led you to this change in attitude / you don't think you have a social front still ? That there is no performance no gap between front and backstage?
what i was trying to point to here is that also led to a kind of dissolving of the problem itself. everything is performance but its performance as performance, not performance intended to decieve or feign authenticity. it all becomes a big fun gamethe interesting thing is that once you work this out and stop pretending you become much freer to throw yourself into different roles, you actually become way more protean as a result
When an individual plays a part he implicitly requests his observers to take seriously the impression that is fostered before them. They are asked to believe that the character they see actually possesses the attributes he appears to possess, that the task he performs will have the consequences that are implicitly claimed for it, and that, in general, matters are what they appear to be.
At one extreme, we find that the performer can be fully taken in by his own act; he can be sincerely convinced that the impression of reality which he stages is the real reality... At the other extreme, we find that the performer may not be taken in at all... This possibility is understandable, since no one is in quite as good an observational position to see through the act as the person who puts it on.
When the individual has no belief in his own act and no ultimate concern with the beliefs of his audience, we may call him cynical, reserving the term sincere for individuals who believe in the impression fostered by their own performance.
It is not assumed... that all cynical performers are interested in deluding their audiences for purposes of what is called "self-interest" or private gain. A cynical individual may delude his audience for what he considers to be illustrations of their own good, or for the good of the community, etc. For illustrations of this we need not appeal to sadly enlightened showmen such as Marcus Aurelius or Hsun Tzu. We know that in service occupations practitioners who may otherwise be sincere are sometimes forced to delude their customers because their customers show such a heartfelt demand for it. Doctors who are led into giving placebos, filling-station attendants who resignedly check and recheck tire pressures for anxious women motorists, shoe clerks who sell a shoe that fits but tell the customer it is the size she wants to hear—these are cynical performers whose audiences will not allow them to be sincere.
For the last four or five years the island's tourist hotel has been owned by a married couple of crofter origins. From the beginning, the owners were forced to set aside their own conceptions as to how life ought to be led, displaying in the hotel a full round of middle-class services and amenities. Lately, however, it appears that the managers have become less cynical about the performance that they stage; they themselves are becoming middle class and more and more enamoured of the selves their clients impute to them.
a performance is, in a sense, "socialised," moulded and modified to fit into the understanding and expectations of the society in which it is presented.
when the individual presents himself before others, his performance will tend to incorporate and exemplify the officially accredited values of the society, more so, in fact, than does his behaviour as a whole.
one of the big things in my life was realising that there is no mask and youre fooling nobody
Not political but I think the Internet Face applies here.
Read an article about the phenomenon and in it Charlie D'Amelio, worlds most followed tik tok user and #1 on Gus's 25 Hottest Under 18, said that facial expression is the most important feature of viral video making.
The close framing of the selfie cam makes each individual feature its own actor. Every muscular twitch is coordinated and optimized.
Other iteration of Internet Face is the infamous soy face. Schizo in that's an attempt to portray both extreme excitement and complete non aggression
for once i know what @luka is on about as i can definitely remember having a similar breakthrough. in that a long time ago i used to be basically paralyzed by an inability to say what i was thinking. in case everyone thought i was a dick. and eventually i decided to just say it, and now everyone thinks i am a dick. or at least that's how i remember it. of course it makes it sound very simple and is probably an illusion and i continue to cycle through a series of selves etc.what led to the change in attitude was a lot of things led up to it, as always when you have a big change, but basically some mushrooms with two other lads and at some point i just decided, delusional probably but never mind, that they liked me, that people generally liked me, that i was likeable and didn't have to worry about the impression i made or conceal anything about my nature. and that stuck with me by and large, for better or for worse