You could just be overthinking it, which is a strange thing for me of all people to be telling anyone.i dont want to strive for happiness becasue i really dont have any very clear idea of what it is.
Interesting that you use that visual metaphor, despite your claims of having difficulty visualizing things. Its a common staple of this popular mindfulness praxis, to visualize catharsis like this, as calm purgations of foul substances.i often think in terms of, and value, a clear connection with all the gunk washed away, and also space. so the brain not clenched and compacted.
Its good to be in love and the love you have for your kids is (mostly) great as well. Unconditional stuff, very different kind of emotion
We can all hide behind our lonely masks and sloganeer our turmoil but really a lot of us are just like turtles wanting someone to aimlessly meander with
At some point the youthful nihilism needs to subside or the latter years can become bleak
I spent most of my early twenties (and late teens i guess) trying to run around with several girls at the same time and often failing miserably then getting caught, definitely disagree
Trying to juggle all your shit and keeping everything segregated was so fucking hard, especially up north. It is easier in London if you're okay with bombing around tube lines as its so big & more tribal to be honest
it was a lot of stress, especially when you're living with someone and trying to do it too. You have to be a bit of a social chameleon if you want to do it successfully, different scenes and vibes
Too many masks, too hectic. The sex is the only good thing about it
Well you'd have to be a bit special to believe in cosmic soulmates brought together by divine intervention surely