but i do appreciate the board's fraternal concern. mushies have been great for my mental/crawling out of Worst Depression of My Life otherwise is the kicker, i wish that was my cognitive baseline instead of the kinds of habitual and characteristic errors and traps i get caught in when sober. probably there is some kind of spiritual or mental discipline i need to be applying to holding that mode of thought and those insights in mind when unaided by drugs. once there was a way to get back home