I've been thinking about character structure a lot and how the basic pattern you've got sets you up for life, and failure or success. I think you have to have a certain kind of drive to make a real success of one's life, the kind of success that's widely recognised. I just don't know if I have that. I was listened to an interview with my fave podcaster (Tyler Cown) and he commented how, when he asks his guests about the reasons for their success (they're all high achievers, big names in their fields) that they probably hide how driven they really are, how ruthless. I can't think of any successful person I've met who didn't have this quality in one way or another.