tell us about the time you were living in london kid. what were you doing there? what were your cultural observations? did you go on any dates?
so i was there for 2.5 months for school.... its funny to talk and bring this up because i almost romanticize this time in my life, despite how lonely and depressed i was feeling while i was there, and how much i was kind of looking forward to going back to the states.... i was only taking a few calsses and they didnt really have homework and they finished earlier than normal classes, so while i was in london, i had plenty of free time to be on my own, for better, and for worse.... i never ate out, only one mediterrean place in soho that i liked.... i went to art museums because they were free and i would sit on the nice cushioned seating in front of massive paintings and read gravitys rainbow and books about bob dylan, those are the images that come up when i think romanitcally about when i lived in london, not when i was in a doctors office telling someone i had just met i wish i didnt have to be alive... i went to the gym pretty routinely, this guy told me he liked my neil young shirt.... i kept to myself a lot which i guess i regret and which i why i wish i could go back and spend a couple months in a foreign place.... i walked through hyde park and kensington gardens a lot, at night and during the day..... i saw a man chase a biker and yell at him for a while... odd.... i rode along the tube a lot, the elizabeth, circle, districk, pickadilly, northern and victoria line.... i liked it way more than any american transit..... i liked walking around soho and south bank a lot, especially at night.... it was so much different and alive than just kurfew kensington..... there was a long bridge, the waterloo bridge, i walked it dozens of times, in the cold and in the rain..... there were a lot of nice grocery or corner stores i would buy food at , i bought most of the same things... i cooked the same exact things every day.... my bank shut down and closed my account over there because i had lost my job months before and had soley been using that bank and card for cyrpto currency and gamlbing.... my parents said it was ok for me to use their card they gave me, but to tell them before i spent money...it almost felt normalized as when i got back to the states and even now it seems so foreign, but man so many fucking people say "cheers" lol.....
i liked the way my teachers said my name.... my british culture teacher was pretty unremarkable, very old and talked slow, and i told him in the hallway i liked james joyce and was going to go to ireland, he was on his phone and kinda ignored me, fuck you.... i gave a presentation on john cale, the most influential and important artist to come out of europe and the class was only like 5 people and only one of them was paying attention.... i chased the group around whitechapel and spitalfields trying to catch up since i forgot it was a field trip, but i quickly gave up.... i stopped going to a lot of class towards the end.... we went on a different field trip to brighton, i slept on the train there and back, when we got there i ran from the group and browsed various antique and record shops, i liked brighton a lot....
my shakespeare teacher liked me, i think he felt bad for me.... we went to 3 different theater plays, well i only went to one, i last minute uh texted teacher i was sick and he would be ok.... the one play i went to was at the globe, it was small and crammed, but i had a good view, i think we saw othello... i sat in between two girls i was talking to.... before the play one asked if i was excited, i told her im not sure, i dont typically care much for plays and maybe something else, but she and the other girl next to me jokingly scolded me over not being excited for a progressive play thats about police brutality or something... i dont know, they didnt look enough like kristin stewart for me to try to play along with them.... i walked across the bridge and took the tube home.... i showed up to my classes late a lot.... the teacher asked if we knew directors.... i said michael mann, he said yes, heat 2 is being made.... that was joy.... i told him about my love for roman polanski films..... he played clips of polanksis macbeth in class one day and told me it was shit..... fuck you
my british politics teacher liked to talk a lot and was very emphatic and nice enough for my careless behavior.... i showed up late a lot and never talked couldnt care less about british politics... there were a lot of polisci majors in the class.... i would show up late a lot and every time he would say oh theres kid charlemagne..... i didnt pay attention, i skipped field trips and double checked if i was missing too many classes, he said i wasnt but would prefer i start showing up to class on time... i was so bored, he never ended class early... i just stared at crypto charts and stared at the odds of nba games that would be played in my sleep.... i was too late to class to ever get in a group for a project so i was on my own.... literally titled my presentation "money" and it was broad, i got like a B- or something.... we wrote a paper for our final exam... i was the first to finish, walked to him and told him then said thanks boss and i never saw him again.... he asked me on the tube once if i was doing ok, i assured him enough
my british sports teacher talked a lot about shit i didnt care about, i always showed up on time.... everyone in class talked and enjoyed the class, lots of field trips, the first one was a walk around london.... i was so underdressed and was so fucking cold.... was almost sick i stood in the showr and stared at a wall..... another field trip we went to hyde park it was really cold and we played rugby.... first time i got the ball i shoved a guy and ran as far as i could away from everyone and then stumbled down in the mud.... second time i got the ball i shoved someone, made some space but was chased down and tackled by a really big guy who played college football in the states..... i was on defense and this guy with the ball came running through, i stood my ground and threw him to the ground.... it was all so exhilarating.... i went home and cried in the shower.... the next class the teacher saw i was reading a book during break.... she was so surprised.... she never sees students read..., it was a book about bob dylan, she said she would play and sing his songs when she was younger.... she told me i seemed to like the rugby game, i told her i liked playing baseball as a kid.... she said she wished i would talk more in class..... the last class i left.... as i walked up to the steps of my building a girl came and gave me my jacket that i left in class.... i got home to check my email and the teacher emailed me askign if i got my coat back..... i dont know
there were some cute girls on my floor... i talked a few times to them.... one of the girls tho, she would always say hi to me anytime she saw me, in the kitchen, in the street, in the hallway, i still cant believe i never talked to her in a full convo.... one night i was going out and i passed her and her friends, they were dressed and glittered up.... she said hi to me, i barely recognized her, she was so stunning, i wish i told her.....
i went on one date with a heavy stacked indian woman who lived in camden.... we went to dinner then went to see a clint eastwood movie.... i cried a few times during the movie then we waalked around southbank in the rain before parting ways..... i sent her an elliott smith song.... we never spoke after......
i could try and think more but i dont know how much else is coming to mind....