It's true, booze fuels terror and despair, you could combat it quite easily by not drinking, the big thing is...the boredom of routine, or more specifically in my case, no routine. So, what now? What will I do for hours this evening? When I studied, I had purpose. I wanted to get 100% and win and go further. Without that, it's...a void. You get wasted, devolve to bonhomie, waste another night, then another day. The worst thing is days off, when you have no way or idea how to productively fill them. So you start drinking. This gets hellish very fast.
I hear this and it's definitely a part of the day's anxiety - what do you do in the evening ?
As free lancer I have gone through this stuff, most days you can deal ,
but some days you just think 'wtf else can I do to make this time worthwhile ...'.
And it feels like an easy slope off into the night.
in short, i think i'm a workaholic.
What do you call someone who can't stop laughing out loud at stuff on the internet?
the trouble with these people is that their cities have never been bombed and their mothers have never been told to shut up.
people with zero depth who make a stupid joke out of EVERYTHING.
sounds like i am, and my addictions are, the exact opposite of what people are describing.
boredom is not only never an issue, the opposite: i jump out of bed at 7 AM, no matter how tired, to work on shit because i'm so damn excited by all the things to be done. and getting high is always, without exception, an enhancement to the rush of creativity. sitting around watching TV or sleeping is the last thing i want to do while stoned: such a waste of a good high!!!
and this of course has its downside... i push myself past the point of exhaustion all the time, addicted to the excitement, the adrenaline... smoke way too much when i'm working on music... and feel like i'm burning my candle at both ends sometimes...
in short, i think i'm a workaholic.
hey what happened to the feldman ringtone!
but speaking of easily amused, the "everything is a joke" and "life is all just a laugh" attitude really bothers me. people that are not capable of being serious for just one second, and talk about something that they CARE about (because, presumably, there is nothing that they care about). people with zero depth who make a stupid joke out of EVERYTHING.
which may or may not be more of American thing, or just a entertainment culture thing,
but speaking of easily amused, the "everything is a joke" and "life is all just a laugh" attitude really bothers me. people that are not capable of being serious for just one second, and talk about something that they CARE about (because, presumably, there is nothing that they care about). people with zero depth who make a stupid joke out of EVERYTHING.
which may or may not be more of American thing, or just a entertainment culture thing,
No, I think this is a good attitude if the humour is actually insightful and funny. If life is inherently meaningless and ideas like purpose, free-will and objective morality are illusions, then you might as well have a good ol' larf. I think it's quite noble and honourable when someone is a sharp wit, it's a service to humanity. Concepts like "depth" and "caring" are overrated.
I think it's quite noble and honourable when someone is a sharp wit, it's a service to humanity.
Concepts like "depth" and "caring" are overrated.
I have to admit I am suspicious of people who moan about irony, apathy and ennui all the time, as if everything would be fine if everybody else was as committed and passionate as they are.
A lot of the world's ills are the fault of people who care way too much: about nationality, race, religion, what other people do with their own genitals, etc...